Shabu Shabu and The Broken Princess...

Just a regular day...

Surfed the net...
Downloaded music..
watched animes...

I did just about everything that I do regularly(since the installment of our DSL)...
Although, I didn't hit "addict mode" today...and I don't know why. I just didn't feel like it. Maybe because the download time in imesh took tooooooo long! In fact it was so long, it either cancelled by itself or I personally cancelled the download. Also I can't download all the music that I want because of the "availability" thing in imesh. The more stars, the "more available" it is, the lesser stars...You've guessed it! The lesser the availability. I can't download most of the songs I like...
What the hell is the use of a DSL if I can't download songs and maximize it's "broadband" capabilities...This really sucks!

I met a girl today...In the Imesh chatroom or whatever the hell they call it. A message box suddenly popped up when I was downloading music...It was a question.
She asked me "Why do u think ur alive" or something like that...
I must admit I was really shocked with the question...
So I asked her, are you emo? She said "It's painted all over, but not to the point that I'd cut myself".
I said "ah...good!...=)" I didn't really know what to say or how to react.
So I answered her question...
My answer was..."I think I'm alive because I have a purpose to live or a purpose/destiny to fulfill...I'm alive 'coz I need to do something great to be able to face God in Heaven..."
That was my exact answer...
Her reply was "good input". And I just replied with a smile...
And then I threw the question back at her...
Her answer was something like..."Earlier because of my bf. But he broke my heart and now I'm dying". A great silence came over me...I didn't hear the dogs barking, the vehicles passing by, the construction going on and even my grandma's loud radio. All was in silence, in that one brief moment. It seemed like that time stood still...

I know that feeling...I've experienced it before. That feeling...which you just wanna tear your chest open with your claws and rip your heart to shreds. I don't ever want to experience that again.

I said "I'm sorry". She said she was alright now. And then she bid me farewell...
She said she has to go...and thank me for the time and the chat.
Then she told me "let's chat again tomorrow" and "wait for me".
I said "okay, I'll wait".
I was thinking about saying "take care, and don't cut yourself" as a joke but I didn't. She is suffering right now and this is not the time to be saying such things, I thought.

Then she said "tc". And I just said "u 2...=)".

Later that afternoon, after fetching mom from the office, we ate at a shabu shabu restaurant...
It was my first time to eat shabu shabu...
There was boiling soup in the middle of the table...and the lady put all of the ingredient in it. She also made the dips where we will dip(obviously) the food after cooking. Everything was done in our table...cooking and all. The ingredients in the soup consisted of vegetables, meat, tofu, mushrooms, shrimp, noodles and fish. It was only a serving for 2 people but it satisfied the 4 of us(mom, dad, me, Issa). It was not as good as japanese food but it was good nonetheless. It was really a unique dinning experience. I wish we could do that again and try out other soups and toppings.

...XD